Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Saturday, May 23, 2015

Slowin' it down to breathe

You know that verse be slow to anger?

Here it is:

My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. (James 1:19-20 NIV)

The truth is I'm not slow to do ANYTHING. Want something done? Give it to a busy person. Let's face it, I'm just this side of crazy and sometimes I'm the other side of crazy.  I annoy myself!!

I know that sometimes it takes a can do, kick butt, and take names spirit to get it done, however sometimes I need to slow down and really think these through.

To be honest, I've been under a ridiculous amount of stress. And in those times, I slow down.

It's a small thing, the cost of the wood for the garden boxes doubled in one week. I have no idea. So I did what every normal person does, I "yelped" lumber yards. I actually found one that I knew that was in the city and its closer to the garden and the wood was a lot cheaper!!

I started to laugh, I thought about all the times my dad would tell me "slow down" when I was a kid and be upset. "Just slow down Margie". That always drove me crazy. 

Slowing down has served me well. Helps me breathe easier, lead better, and feel better. There is a time when its "full steam ahead" but there are times I need to regroup. 

Today, I'm breathing.  And I'll steam ahead filling boxes with dirt! It's time to grow stuff!!!

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

Let us love


There are days when I get a little annoyed and frustrated. 

I mean like I could just…  slap someone.  I mean like slap someone really hard. 

And then I read something like this…  Go ahead read it, I dare you, I double-dog-dare you.  Read it and don’t be moved.  It puts things into perspective.


As I sit in my air conditioned office, wearing nice clothes, knowing my own daughter is safe, last night my greatest issue was that I was soaked by rain after a walk with my friend, I know  those around me are safe, I pray for those in service (military, fire, police, EMT), praying for “those ISIS people” that God would change their hearts…  I find, I need to change my own heart. 

And sometimes I just say to myself, SHUT UP. You’re dumb.  People need to be loved, and you were put here to love.  I don’t know how you love people in the middle east so far away, how do I hug them and tell them it’s going to be ok, when I am not really sure that it is. I wasn’t called to that.  And it’s not like today, I am going to leave on a jet plane and go, I just wasn’t, at least not now.  And sometimes it makes me angry when people talk about the Muslims in Dearborn like they are cut from the same cloth as the ISIS people.  I want to scream “shut up” those are my friends, and quite frankly, they are less judgmental and kinder than some of the Christians I know.  Just love them, not because they are a “them” but because they are people, and all people need love.   Us and them is never the answer, it’s just not.  Hate is never the answer. 

I sit here thinking “what am I supposed to do God?  What are you requiring of me? You’ve shown me some crazy things over the last 8 months, You’ve moved my heart, and You’ve shown me the mistakes I’ve made even if I had good intentions of loving people, WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?”

I think of this scripture…

Micah 6:8 

He has shown you, O mortal, what is good.
    And what does the Lord require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
    and to walk humbly[a] with your God.

But the truth is, I want to run, I want to go fast.  But running, in some direction isn’t going to get me to where God wants me to be.  Do you see that word? Humbly.  Humbly.  Humility.

This is not about me.  Yes, God is stirring in my heart to do something, but I AM NOT A SAVIOR.  God is a Savior, and let’s not miss that He is Lord.  Lord. 

Lord

someone or something having power, authority, or influence; a master or ruler (definition from here https://www.google.com/webhp?gws_rd=ssl#q=lord+definition)

Power and Authority

I don’t need power or authority, I need Jesus.  If I am really going to love, I need Him.  I need to walk, slowly, humbly, in the path He has guided.  But it’s not about moving, it’s about loving.  Every day.  We must move in the direction of Love, we must love, we must serve and love. Ok, maybe not we, but me.  I must do those things, I am not accountable to for you, and your actions, I am accountable for me.  (I need to remember this most at work, it’s hard for me here, like I get the choice to live two different lives?!) 

So thankfully God has ear-marked this day for me to serve dinner to some people that I love. Three letters, M B K.  one of my favorite days of the month, my day of serving.  It’s a day of smiling, love and hugs.  It’s a time of just being thankful that He has called me, that He has equipped me. 

Every day.  How will I love tomorrow?  How will I surrender me, to be more like Him? I don’t know. 

What will I do about that article I just read, because now that I have seen, I am responsible.  I am not sure what God has planned but my heart is open.  Whatever it is.

Let us love.

Dear children, let us not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth ~1 John 3:18

Let them know us by our love. 

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Menu planning

Sunday - celebrating Cheryl for Momma's day!!! At Smokies

Monday - taco chili

Tuesday - Mbk (leftovers)

Wednesday - chicken cacciatore 

Thursday - equip (leftovers)

Friday - dinner with Allison

Saturday - BBQ chicken and veggies 

A great long weekend

Thursday  was such a great day!!! I'm so blessed that I work for a company that believes in giving, and doing good in the community.

It's no doubt how much I love the city of Detroit. The love the fun, sparkley parts, and the parts that are a little dirty, but mostly I love the parts that serve those in the city.  

We served at Focus Hope. I thought we'd be working in the assembly line packing boxes but instead we broke down pallets staging it for the next crew to come in. OHMYWORD!!! It was soooooooooooo fun!

And then we went to Punch Bowl Social for lunch. It's a fun cool place. I was excited to go!!! We had a nice lunch, and the worst part about it was the $20 parking in the structure, but really it was fine.

It was the beginning to my weekend! I decided I'm gonna have a pretty chill weekend. I was supposed to go out of town but decided my best yes would be to stay home, take care of some things and take care of myself (this girl is in need of a pedi!!!)

Life has been a little crazy lately, I can't seem to slow down and I when things are nuts I can't hear God because it's too loud in my head. 

That's why I love equip on Thursday nights. It's a time when things slow down and it's time to pray and just be still.  There is something about being in the sanctuary of a church (even if it's an auditorium), breathing in Jesus.  It makes walls melt, craziness stop. 

Today I went to church to clean. I took the day off to take care of some things that was stacked up in my schedule and took the weekend "off" to take good care of myself and get somethings done. Plotted out how many bags of mulch I need, cleaned out my closet, planned meals for a successful week next week, plotted my schedule for cooking Mexican for MBK, grocery shopping, pedicure, massage. 

I'm not one who normally says I need me time. I can have me time when I'm dead, but I also recognize the need to take good care of myself. 

A weekend that included serving, taking care of my house, those I love, and myself. 

Life is crazy, and it's great, and I'm thankful for this weekend to stop the world for a moment. 

Sunday, May 10, 2015

This Mother's Day!

I sat in church today, as I have often done on Mother's Day trying to fight back tears. 

I was so very thankful. Today as I drove to church, I asked God, kind of begged Him, Please don't let me cry today. Haha! To be honest the last few times I've been to church lately I've cried. Just joining a new church, it's embarrassing. Lol but moved, I just can't help it!

Now we all know I'm a crier, I ain't foolin' NOBODY! And yes, I miss my momma.  But I have absolutely so very much to be thankful for.  I don't know if I've ever really accepted that I was born to be a momma.  And half the time I had no clue what I was doing lol. I knew to give big hugs, make food, push hard, and fight fiercely (and buy toys lol).

We had little money as my daughter grew up and I'm sure there were moments (and still are) that she knew she'd have to do without. Which really is how life is for a lot of people (not just single moms).

I asked God today, please fill the void of missing my momma. If not for everyday but for today. Nobody needs to see that. And by the time I turned onto dragoon, my heart was filled with joy!!! Thank You Jesus. 

I thought this is gonna be a good day, we had pastries from Mexicantown bakery, I ate a cheese tamale (don't judge me, I can't eat flour)... It's gonna be great, and don't forget - THE DISHWASHER!!!!! It's gonna be good!!! 

Then it happened... My pastor started talking about how mothers sacrifice. Good gravy. I'm listening to him talk about his momma and I'm so inspired! And then I start thinking of my momma. Oh jeez. Come on Margie!!! Hold it together! Do not cry!!! You can do it! Ok get a Kleenex. Just wipe away those few tears. You can do it. It's just a few. No sobbing. 

Yeah. No. Then the last song started... And I started really praising God for my momma, my sacrificing momma. Then I started thanking Him for Phyllis and by His grace, making me a good momma, a hard hugging, great cooking, fierce loving momma. Now you know me, praising God. crying. Jeez.

So happy Mother's Day! Whether you're a child of a momma ( which surely you are) or a momma, or someone who loves like a momma! 

You are loved and cherished.

I guess there's always next week to try not to cry! 

Saturday, May 09, 2015

A Mother's Day gift!!!

Last night I came home from an incredible night with friends to find a dishwasher hoses on the coffee table. I thought that was rather odd... I thought maybe Phyllis bought them for someone... I just had no idea that someone was me!

Our dishwasher has acted weird for awhile but it just hasn't been a priority to get a new one, though I did pay for it to be repaired awhile ago.  And I had gotten a free one from a friend, just haven't had the time to install it. 

Now, I'll tell you, I love love love to give gifts, but I'm not so crazy about receiving them, it makes me feel weird, I don't really get why people would want to give me a gift. Really I don't get it. And I like homemade gifts, it's silly, mostly because I have no talent so I'm so impressed by homemade stuff. And I certainly don't like Phyllis to spend a lot of money on me, to me, it's not necessary and she works soooooo very hard for her money, she doesn't need to spend it on me.

This was quite a shock and a wonderful surprise!!! I'm soooooo excited!!!! To wash dishes in my new dishwasher!!! 

Friday, May 08, 2015

Happy days!!!

I'm a box checker. There is no doubt about it.  I've been back for about a week and getting my house in order was just what I needed. I took half the day off today!

I went grocery shopping today and stocked up the freezer with organic chicken, there's lots of veggies now!  It's been harder to make good choices in eating without lots of veggies at home.

I even got some floors & bedding washed 

I've been trying to make progress in getting rid of stuff and today I got to drop off two bags (and a box) of donations! And I EVEN DROPPED THEM OFF!!!!

I even got to celebrate Mother's Day having lunch with my dad who had to do double duty most of my life. Poor guy, as if having me as a daughter wasn't painful enough, he had to step up and take on both roles. Haha!

The truth is sometimes there is just lots to do, and just a half day off to get things done is just what my heart needs. Box checking makes me happy!!! 

I'm thankful for a beautiful day to get things done! And soon my friends will be here!

The truth about my life

Yesterday I was sitting in the movie theater getting ready to watch the Avengers, next to Vicki, eating popcorn and a slurpee for dinner, and I thought "wow, I have the greatest life"

Today my friends come down to Detroit for just a couple days, I got a groupon for a place we were gonna eat for 20% off the already good deal.  I get to spend the day with them tomorrow. And Sunday is Mother's Day (and we aren't doing anything particularly exciting - going to Ikea and painting closet doors).

The community garden plans are under way (we are shoveling dirt Memorial weekend if you want to help), my life is full of people i love, I have a great job that God uses for His provision, my house is safe, I talk to a real live hero every day, my daughter is my greatest joy...

I'm one blessed chic.

I say this to say, not everyone would like or want my crazy life. But I challenge you to find your blessings in your life.

But remember, I'm God's favorite (and you are too)

Sunday, May 03, 2015

A to Z faith - zealous


Well, this is the end of this crazy A to Z faith blog prompt...

A lot of people think that it's such a great blessing to others to be in youth ministry but really I was always the one blessed. 

I carried prayer requests around in my wallet for years and years. Seeing it would remind me to pray. Their senior pictures... It was an honor to love them.

There was this one time, one of my students asked me to pray that she would be zealous in her pursuit of Jesus.

Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. (Romans 12:11 NIV)

Do you know that I still pray that prayer for her? Many years later and i pray it for myself too. 

I pray you are zealous in your pursuit of Jesus too!

I'm (not really) a quitter

I'm a quitter.

Oh wait, I quit

That doesn't make me a quitter.

We came to manitou incline http://www.manitouincline.net

It's basically a mile straight up. There is a half way point that you can go to. I was pretty determined I was gonna make it all the way up. But about 100 steps into I was dying, I wanted to quit then. But I kept going mostly because Katie was cheering me on. 

My legs were burning, my heart was beating out of my chest, and I couldn't breathe. Did I want to at least make it half way? Yes. Did I think it would be that hard? No. Did I want to quit? No. But my body was saying "we are not going to make it" no matter how hard I tried to keep going.

So I quit.

And you might think I'd feel bad about that. Well, of course I wish I could have done it, but I went further than I've ever done and did something harder than I've ever done in my life. 

It was hard. Really hard. Really really really hard. And so I turned around. And it was even hard going down. And scary. 

I feel like maybe I should feel bad that I quit, but I don't. Because I went further than I've ever been and it was harder than anything I've ever done. So I feel like a winner ❤️

A to Z faith - Yahweh

When I get stressed in any situation, I breathe in and out God

Yah (breathe in)
Weh (breathe out)

I've learned that in times of trouble, stress, crazy this really really works for me.

Nothing can rescue me like Jesus! Nothing can bring me peace like Jesus!
Nothing else can turn my crazy into joy like Jesus!!!