Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Friday, July 03, 2015

Serve with me

I have to tell you about this weird character flaw I have (besides hating when people call me awesome). 

I'm terrible at socializing. 

For the most part, if you want to spend time with me, you have to serve with me. Rarely do I just sit around and do nothing. And it makes me crazy when I'm talking to someone while they are looking for someone else to talk to...

I think of my best friends, we serve together or have served together. That's where we have our best conversations, our hearts are open.

I know it's something I need to work on because not everyone likes to serve and I'm missing out and so are they (haha)

Want to clean church with me? Or pull weeds (it will be harvest soon)?!

Wednesday, July 01, 2015

Podcast list

The truth is that I’d like to write about current events but mostly I just want to tell some people to shut up and love someone.  So there you go…

Well, I needed to update my podcast library and a few months ago I asked people to share their favorite podcasts because I had burned through all my favorites.  I’d like to share the list that was compiled with all of you! There are a few that I have listened to (I recommend Courage Church, Chilly Chilton, Meeting house, Elevation)


Meeting House – Bruxy Cavey

Woodland Hills – Greg Boyd

Journey Church – Felix Quinones

The Village

Redeemer Presbyterian Church – Timothy Keller

City Church – Judah Smith

New Spring – Perry Noble

Hillsong NYC – Carl Lentz

Elevation Church – Steven Furtick

Chilly Chilton

Ed Young

Lisa Bevere

Jentezen Franklin

Celebration Church – Stovall Williams

Truth for life – Alistar Begg

Your Move – Andy Stanley

River Valley Church – Rob Ketterling

Tony Evans

John Piper

Jessie Duplantis

The Crossing (St. Louis) Greg Holder

Poplar Creek – Ian Simkins

The Urban Alternative – Dr. Tony Evans

Renovatus Church – Jonathon Martin



Tuesday, June 30, 2015

The joy of gardening

That snazzy garden needed more tomato cages and so... I ordered 20 tomato cages from THE FOURTH Lowes I tried!! So I picked them up and headed over to the garden and put them up...

There was a woman walking with a baby in a stroller she shouted "it's looking good" and so I offered her the first squash that was ready for picking. It was a little small but it hadn't grown much since last week and it would just get hard and unedible if it wasn't eaten. So I asked her if she liked squash, she shouted "yes" so I walked it over to her and she was so excited (almost as excited me!!!!!) and I was so very happy I finished caging my tomatoes today. 

I have been so pleased with all aspects of this garden. The building, the community, and just watching it grow. Things that I seem to do for others always seem to be more of a blessing to me.  I mean this crazy garden makes me soooo happy and brings me joy and peace. I will never understand why God chose me or even chooses me to do crazy things but I'm so blessed! 

I love this silly garden!!! And that lady is gonna eat a "home grown" squash!! My heart is over flowing!

Saturday, June 27, 2015

You're awesome!

I have to tell you about something that really bothers me. 

I'd like to tell you about one of my biggest pet peeves.

I hate when you do something nice for someone and they say "you're awesome". In my head to the average person who says this to me (buckets and a few people excluded) I want to take back what I did and say "bite me".

I know I'm awesome, I'm a Masterpiece (eph 2:10), God created me, but that "you're awesome" you just threw at me just said to me "I only like you because you do things for me.

You know where it's the worst? Church

When we say to (especially new believers) "you're awesome" when they do something for us, they find their value in what they do not who they are. When their schedule doesn't allow them to do something, they stop being awesome and start being hurt.  They see no difference in the church and the world, they both used them.  

There are few people that I actually believe them when they say "you're awesome" to me (unless you're a bucket or a Beck(y or ie) I probably don't believe you and want to say "bite me" as my response to you... Maybe I'll start doing that instead of saying the uncomfortable "thank you" I usually say ;)

Sunday, June 21, 2015

thanks dad!!!

i have a millions things to be thankful for when it comes to my dad!!!  Here's just a few!

Thank you for not giving me up for adoption

Thank you for raising me

Thank you for always feeding me first when you cooked breakfast on the boat

Thank you that I always had clean clothes

Thank you for teaching me how to do laundry

Thank you that you always made sure I was fed

Thank you for teaching me how to cook

Thank you for sacrificing so that we could have a boat

Thank you for naming 4 boats after me

Thank you for teaching me to swim

Thank you for teaching me to brave

Thank you for teaching me how to drive the boat

Thank you for teaching me how to be the best first mate

Thank you for believing that I could

Thank you for teaching me to stick by family

Thank you for teaching me to be the human GPS

Thank you for bringing incredible women in my life

Thank you for teaching me to be independent

Thank you teaching me that color doesn’t matter

Thank you for all your support with Phyllis

Thank you for financially supporting us

Thank you for keeping Phyllis overnight when I needed a break

Thank you for supporting me with my job

Thank you for picking up Phyllis when I had to travel to Chicago (and got stuck there!)

Thank you for supporting me when I went back to school

Thank you for believing that I could be successful

Thank you for teaching me to serve others

Thank you for taking care of me when I was young

Thank you for teaching me that you measure the rice and then the water when making rice.

Thank you for helping me to believe in Santa until I was in 4th grade

Thank you for Easter baskets

Thank you for always keeping me in touch with Mom’s family

Thank you for letting people take me to church

Thank you for all my Barbie stuff

Thank you for teaching me to take care of others

Thank you for showing me how great Detroit is

Thank you for taking me to Belle Isle

Thank you for teaching me to never settle

Thank you for teaching me to love to travel

Thank you for bringing me a great step mom

Thank you for calling me when you make Beef Barley Soup
Thank you dad! I l loveyou!!!

Saturday, June 20, 2015

Happy heart!

I am not naturally "sporty". Nothing sporty comes easy for me, except for cheering!! Now I'm great at cheering!!! Except if Netta and I are watching a Red Wing's game, then we cheer when everyone else does because we were talking!! One time I went canoeing and I had never been before and literally was told to sit there and look pretty (I was a lot skinnier then)!

That being said I don't tend to like to do "exercisie" things with people because, well... I suck at it. Really bad. With really the exception of doing things with Katie. Katie is one of those people who seems to be good at everything, but i don't mind doing things with her because she's so encouraging!! I went kayaking last week (I think it was Sunday) and today we tried (both of our first times) paddle boarding. I knew it wasn't gonna be easy but why not try it?!?

So like most exercise things, I wasn't that great at it. So much so that the guy said (after teaching other people cool turning things) - "you'll probably just have to only focus on paddling for the next 6 or 7 times you go out". It seriously took everything I had in me not to cry!!! Yes it's true. I was so nervous, everyone who went was fit, and I am a chubster. My core is not as strong as it should be ( and this was a great motivator to work on that) and I hate looking stupid, which I'm sure I did. (Id also like to say that I bet that guy can't make food for 100
People like he's making food for 4 like I can).

I've had some people say some pretty discouraging things to me in the past, which always makes me nervous about starting/trying new things but it makes me especially thankful for friends who do half marathons with me or who do the incline with me and don't make me feel stupid when I can't finish, or who go paddle boarding and aren't embarrassed to be seen with me (or at least don't act like it)! Or the millions (ok maybe not millions) or people who supported my dream of starting a community garden!!! 

Good Friends make my heart happy!!

Friday, June 19, 2015


Its they day after the mission trip and I'm tired and to be honest this was the easiest mission trip I think I've ever been on (with the exception that I worked almost 18 hours while being on vacation)

We worked at the coolest community garden and walked around downtown Denver learning about the homeless. And some other various projects. 

Honestly I forgot how much I loved and missed youth ministry which scares me. Lol

It was a really great week and I am super thankful that I was able to serve Jesus this way. My life just seems different, running until I can't run any longer, trying to sprint a Marathon are just not things I want to do. 

A lot of people seem to be reading/studying Lysa TerKeurst's book "best yes" and loving it because I think it strikes a cord with so many because we push ourselves to exhaustion trying to be everybody's everything (or maybe it was just me) and I am all for loving and serving others but sacrifice is not the same as people pleasing. I've learned because God made me, that serving at a normal capacity (I think my normal might be more than others - but remember we measure ourselves by God's ruler not anyone else's) is fun, heart changing, fruit growing AND bearing.

There's lessons in everything. I have learned that God really speaks to my heart on mission trips, near or far and anywhere in between! Especially when our lives are lived missional.

This verse has been all over my heart this week!!

But someone who does not know, and then does something wrong, will be punished only lightly. When someone has been given much, much will be required in return; and when someone has been entrusted with much, even more will be required. (Luke 12:48 NLT)